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What do I do? Al is selling the house and I don't have anywhere here in T.O to go. Ange is moving in with Dan, and there is no ficking way that I'll even be fucking invited to come with her. So hello parents house. Here I come I guess.
Current Mood:
sad sad
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You know, when I say that I'm not upset or pissed off, I generally mean it. Yes, sometimes I say that I'm fine when I don't want to talk about whatever's bothering me then. But today, I was perfectly fine until I kept being asked over and over again. I'm sorry if I was looking upset. Really, I was tired. I was not upset about you two going on your date. Honestly, I think that it's a good idea right now. And I was not feeling lonely or left out! I was just tired!

So....yes. That's my little shpleel.
Current Location:
Dan's room
Current Mood:
annoyed annoyed
Current Music:
the fan in the room
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I know that everybody starts off writing more about themselves. And yes, I'm going to do it too. My reasoning for it is this: I can't assume that everyone who reads this knows me, my backstory, and the backstory to what ever I may be talking about in my post. I just think that it's common curtesy for people. Oh, and I'm not the best speller in the world so please forgive me for any spelling mistakes I make.

Well now. More about me. I am currently living in Scarborough, Ontario. I used to live in Brantford with my parents but we had a huge falling out. See, I had entered into a poly relationship with my current boyfriend and girlfriend, and my boyfriend and I ended up chatting over msn. One thing led to another and we were having internet sex. My Dad came home, I had to go and do something, and he read my conversation as I didn't have time to close the window before I had to go. Needless to say, that really enraged my parents and I was forbidden to talk to them and use msn for a long, undetermined amount of time.  Well I couldn't give up so easily on them so I snuck around behind my parent's backs quite a few times in order to see and talk to them. My parents put even more rules and restrictions on me than they already had, and generally made me extremely unhappy. Eventually I couldn't take any more of it and my boyfriend (Dan), my girlfriend (Ange), Mike (roommate), and I started making plans for me to move out. I did on January 29th. Right after my last exam. Now, I am so much happier here.

This is our first poly relationship and because of that we did expect some rocky points. Dan and Ange had been dating for 4 years when I joined in. Surprisingly though, they've been the ones with the most problems to work out. See, they didn't talk about things when something that the other did bothered them. They've been getting better at talking and are starting to finally work things out. Which is really awesome because when they didn't talk to each other, they'd talk to me about what was bugging them. And so, I couldn't talk them about what either had said. Which was very frustrating. Anyway, the point was that we've been dating for 8 months as of the 15th, and it looks like we'll be dating for a good long while yet.

My Dad's 50th birthday party was on Friday the 6th. Now because of the way I left my parents, I was really nervous about the party. I was fearing that emotions would be running high, and that  there'd be some crying, and maybe even some yelling. But the only yelling that was done, was done by the 4 kids running around. All in all, the party was really nice. Though, the one thing that I really didn't like was not knowing who knew about me leaving my parents and/or how much they knew about it. One thing that my Dad specifically asked of me when I was telling people that I was leaving, was to not tell them that I was in a relationship of any kind. And in an effort to make things better between us, that's what I did. But now at family events I feel like I have to hide the fact that, not only am I dating Dan and Ange, that I love them as well. And because I have to hide that, it just seems to me that, in a way, I'm ashamed of them. Which I'm really not. But it just feels like that a lot of the time.

Well, I think that's good for my first post. I'll post more later
Current Mood:
worried worried
Current Music:
October Project - Dark Time
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